Diary
This is not an advice section. I just write down how it went. The good days and the bad ones.
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13.10.2026 Diary XLIII Epokhe: waiting before judging
The ancient sceptics called suspending judgment epokhe. Is it doubting everything, or a pause that stands in the way of hasty judgment?
5 min - Medium
12.10.2026 Diary XLII Hexis: repetition turning into character
For Aristotle, virtue is not a feeling or a talent but a state settled by repetition: hexis. The philosophy of habit, custom in law, and how long it really takes.
5 min - Medium
11.10.2026 Diary XLI Aporia: where the path ends
In Greek, aporia means a place with no passage. Is it a failure that Socrates' questions always end in an impasse, or the real beginning of philosophy?
6 min - Medium
10.10.2026 Diary XL Metis: the mind of the winding road
The name the Greeks gave to a kind of mind apart from straight reason, one that changes shape like an octopus: metis. The link between strategy and a head that does not fit rules.
8 min - Medium
09.10.2026 Diary XXXIX Family resemblance: no single common thing
For Wittgenstein there is no single common feature beneath the word 'game.' I wrote what this means for the symptom list of an ADHD diagnosis.
7 min - Medium
08.10.2026 Diary XXXVIII Zeno: no reaching the half before its half
Zeno of Elea's bisection paradox seems to describe why starting is so hard. Its solution has less to do with starting than with the size of the steps.
7 min - Medium
07.10.2026 Diary XXXVII Sorites: how many make a heap?
One plate is not a mess, nor are two. So at which one is the kitchen messy? What an ancient paradox tells a mind that knows the difference but not the boundary.
7 min - Medium
06.10.2026 Diary XXXVI Phronesis: where the rule ends
For Aristotle, right action comes from a mind that can read the situation, not from a rule. I wrote what that means on a day when no method held.
7 min - Medium
05.10.2026 Diary XXXV Parrhesia: when speaking has a price
The Greeks gave telling the truth at a risk its own name. Disclosing a diagnosis, asking for accommodations, setting a boundary: all are everyday forms of it.
8 min - Medium
04.10.2026 Diary XXXIV Oikeiosis: the nearest ring, the most neglected
The Stoics counted standing by yourself as nature's first movement. What does that mean for someone who grew up where self-care was counted as selfishness?
8 min - Medium
03.10.2026 Diary XXXIII Aletheia: the diagnosis adds nothing new
The Greek word for truth is built from the negation of forgetting. The day I was diagnosed nothing about me changed, only the cover came off. Are the two the same?
8 min - Medium
02.10.2026 Diary XXXII Akrasia: not doing what you know
I know what I need to do and I am not doing it. Ancient philosophy's debate on weakness of will took up the sentence most often heard in ADHD two thousand years ago.
8 min - Medium
01.10.2026 Diary XXXI Entelekheia: potential is not a promise
Everyone diagnosed late hears one sentence: you are not using your potential. Aristotle's distinction between capacity and act shows why that sentence is unfair.
8 min - Medium
30.09.2026 Diary XXX Ataraxia: calm is not found by searching
On the last day of September I did the month's accounts. Ancient philosophy's idea of calm asks what happens when you stop keeping accounts.
8 min - Medium
29.09.2026 Diary XXIX Amor fati: loving what is, or accepting it?
What does Nietzsche's idea of loving your fate mean for someone diagnosed late? I wrote about the difference between accepting and resigning yourself.
7 min - Medium
28.09.2026 Diary XXVIII Kairos: the time a clock cannot measure
The Greeks had two words for time: the time a clock measures and the right moment. I wrote about what this means for someone with time blindness.
8 min - Short
27.09.2026 Diary XXVII A good week is about to begin
Most well-meant sentences made on Sunday evening do not hold. This time I tried to make the sentence not as hope but as preparation.
3 min - Short
26.09.2026 Diary XXVI Home, sweet home
For someone with ADHD, home is where the mask comes off and where order has to be built from outside. I wrote about why home matters so much.
3 min - Short
25.09.2026 Diary XXV I stopped fighting myself
For years I wrestled with my own mind and never won. I wrote that giving up the war is not surrender, it is the front line moving.
3 min - Short
24.09.2026 Diary XXIV Needle for yourself, sack needle for others
Read properly, the proverb says to start the measure with yourself. But for someone with ADHD this sentence has a side that works backwards, and I wrote about it.
3 min - Medium
23.09.2026 Diary XXIII Sometimes it doesn't happen, and it's not you
Some things do not happen even when you do everything right. On taking responsibility versus taking on everything, and on separating out your share.
8 min - Medium
22.09.2026 Diary XXII The measures of self-worth bother me
What do we measure our own worth by? Productivity, usefulness, someone else's approval. The tiredness of weighing yourself on borrowed measures.
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21.09.2026 Diary XXI Responsibility and the mediocrity of blame
Blaming is easy and comforting. But the one who blames becomes the spectator of their own life. Why taking responsibility is heavy, and why it frees.
5 min - Medium
20.09.2026 Diary XX The Penny Factory
An allegory of a factory that calls people gold and turns them into pennies. The sweet tongue of the deceiver, the shame of the deceived, and the way out of the factory.
5 min - Medium
19.09.2026 Diary XIX The two-facedness money creates
Everyone is warm until money comes up. In the offer the budget is no problem, in the invoice everything is too much. The two faces money brings out in working life.
4 min - Medium
16.09.2026 Diary XVI Writing
I have been writing for sixteen days. What writing does for someone who is afraid of the blank page, and why I do not want to stop.
5 min - Medium
15.09.2026 Diary XV The banality of evil and stupidity
Evil often comes not with big plans but with not thinking and being too sure of oneself. Arendt, Bonhoeffer and everyday shallowness.
5 min - Medium
14.09.2026 Diary XIV Tiredness
There is tiredness that passes with sleep, and tiredness that does not. A diary on the tiredness of the body, the mind, the mask and feeling.
5 min - Medium
13.09.2026 Diary XIII Staring at the wall
Today I stared at the wall for a long time. What happens inside those moments that look like emptiness from outside: did I freeze, did I overflow, or am I thinking?
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12.09.2026 Diary XII The tide between burnout and excitement
One day I am excited enough for everything, the next day I cannot get out of bed. Where this tide comes from and how to stand on the shore.
5 min - Medium
11.09.2026 Diary XI On not knowing worth
Knowing the price of something is easy, knowing its worth is hard. Why is not knowing worth so common, and where does a person look for their own worth?
6 min - Medium
09.09.2026 Diary IX From work to myself, from myself to work
I close the computer but the work does not close; I open it in the morning but I do not open. On being stuck between two doors and really being able to cross.
6 min - Medium
08.09.2026 Diary VIII Following a leaf
Today I watched a leaf fall. With no hurry, telling no one, it let go of where it clung. I, it turns out, have long been living without letting go of anything.
7 min - Medium
07.09.2026 What we do bashfully and why we feel ashamed
Shame is a strange feeling. A movement that is natural alone in a room turns wrong when a pair of eyes turns on you. There is an audience inside shame.
7 min - Medium
I don't feel like waking up
I am not talking about dying but about catching up. When I opened my eyes, life asking something of me again felt heavy; it had a list in its hand again.
8 min - Long
Men without women and without sense - I felt sad for a friend
When some women leave a man's life, it is not only a person who goes missing, an order breaks down. Today I felt sad for a friend.
14 min - Long
A simple form of evil.. A childlike state
Something very ordinary happened the other day. A sentence, a silence, a tiny change in the other person's face. When I got home, that expression stuck in my mind.
10 min - Short
02.09.2026 Diary II When what you do goes unseen, it hurts everyone
How do you tell a blind person from someone who closes their eyes? The thinking behind my work is invisible, and invisible effort gets counted as never done.
3 min - Short
Why I keep a diary like this - let the ADHD Diary begin
When you run, your eyes are always ahead, yet I like walking. I opened this place so as not to write myself at the very bottom of my life's to-do list.
3 min